I can feel my-self in her space.

When I came accross this listing it was not in the mix that I was looking. But here she was. This newly constructed house (2009) but in one of those awkward back yard jobs!!! The speculators and those that are doing their superannuation program.

Here I am the country girl that is used to acres of rolling hills, but very fast realising that I will never have what I had before. So now I need to learn how to nest in a space that is little and safe. Just like a blue winged fairy wren!!. Well today I think I found my safe place.

The colours im the houser are all warm brown colours with raw materials as well. It has space and the main thing is - the possessions that I have had for my lifetime - they fit here in this house. The other feature is that it is a house and not a duplex or a villa. It has really good stuff but lacks basic stuff like overhead fans or air conditioning or evap air con. it is also not fenced to keep my puppies safe.

but all of this is solvable.

I will talk to my bank manager and see if I can get this place......it feels right for me at the moment. Might even borrow enough for a spa!!!!!!! Come on over KS.......

Setting up home again....

Today I took a rec leave day. To do some more de-clutter, to clean, to throw away, to recycle. But the main event of the day was to go and check out an option for a home to buy. It is perfect. I could just fit in there perfectly. Still keep close to my sister. No pool, but I do love the feel of the place when inside. Stay tuned for my report of this special place.....but have to go now for the moment.

take care, angels bless,

I am asking for a sign that this is the place to buy and I will accept that notice.

So life goes on... and yet another test

I just love a challenge

I have had such a great week this week. Made progress on some documentation that I really need to get done. I have an absolutely beautiful work sister, and really need to get this done so that I can keep the load to maximum rather than 'bursting' level!! Plus I just want to do a really good job so that when all is done, we can both look back with pride, knowing that we gave it our all.

I have had myself checked out for skin cancers again. Last time I went I said goodbye to 3 of the nasty little 'life upsetters'. Today thought, I was given the all clear, well, at least for now. My family genetics really keep me from ignoring this important check. Fortunately for me now, I was never one to 'fry in the sun'. I would sweat too much and want to go and get wet or cool. My eldest sister has certainly paid the price for her recipe of baby oil and extremely sunny days. But all is not lost as she still shines as the beautiful beacon she is.

Today I have been given a 'just have a look at this and see what you reckon' project. Bless my boss, he knows how to push my button into overdrive. So now I must away and start having a look at the project to see 'if it is possible' and to see if I think that I can do it!......................Oh yes I can.....cause I can do anything if I take the opportunity and run with it.

Take care,

Angels Bless all those that I love, meet and care about.

A new beginning!!!

Well what a couple of weeks it has been. Do I need to blow my trumpet or just settle and do the inner searching that we always can benefit from.

All of a sudden I have the world at my feet in a way. I am now in a position to make my own decisions as I am no longer someone elses partner!

Where do I want to live. Here in the city where I currently live. Or do I want to live in another state. This could be possible now. Or can I just throw it all away and go overseas and be the nomad volunteer that lives on bread and water like all of the people that volunteers help!

Or do I get the opportunity to go back to where I had a bit of happiness, closer to my son, to my grandaughter, to my other daughter (daughter in law ex - but ex by no means).

All of a sudden I have all of these options that can actually be real for the first time in 40 years.

Wow.. that is truly a mindblowing concept.

This clarity has come from some very good friends of mine which have also included my real sisters. It has been so good to be in contact with them. We are going to shout ourselves a 'getting to know you again' meeting. I can't wait. The thought of the three of us together for the first time since our dad died.... it is truly time to do it.

Actually quite ironic that I wrtite this blog on the 34th yr anniversary of his burial today. I had the most poop day on his death day....but that happens every year anyway. You get used to it.

I just want to say - relationships come and they go. They all take a tremendous amount of energy and if you are a slow learner like me, being fifty has made it no easier. The men still do what they want to do and twist things the way they want to see things.

I am over it.

Time to go back to having a lover and living by myself.

Thats the life!!! And my conscience is clear cause I don't have to take on their crap.......